功课

在急诊室进入第三星期，知道自己还有很多不足之处，也好，有机会好好学习。最近大家都在担心会被分配到其他医院的事，临时上阶层的人事调动，导致大家的命运都很难预测。如果可以选择，我当然要留在市中心的医院，因为必须准备考试的事，可是很多事，都不是我能决定的。自己能力范围以外的事，可以不理，我只能这样自我安慰，我会去争取，再过两个月，结果只能听天由命了。我要好好充实自己，从现在起就开始，朝理想的方向努力。别人对我的信心常常超越我对自己的，这大概也是我必须克服的问题之一吧？if you want to be a specialist,you should be able to think like one,talk like one and act like one,曾经有人这么告诉我，也上司曾说，you don't have to thank me,you can thank me by being a good doctor.我算是好医生吗？如果不是，到底还有什么必须加强？怎样才能做得更好?这是我必须做的功课。

To my dearest sister,

Ten years ago when I was in your position,fretful and uncertain of my future, many people shared their opinions and views, in case you have not noticed,i use the term “sharing”, for me, their view is still theirs and I shall have my own opinion. It is my future, my journey of life that we are talking about, and I am the one that will be responsible for it at the end of the day. I hope you understand the point that I am trying to make you understand, the reason I keep insisting that you decide on your own, others can only give you their opinion, but no one knows better than you, what is the best for yourself, we have to be objective but sometimes you just have to follow what your heart says.
Ok, I hate to intefere in your decision making, but since you think my view is so important to you, guess I will have to say something...pls bear in mind that I really have minimal idea in the field that you are going to enter. After being “enlighten” by uncle yin koon, probably,matrix is a better choice in view of a more secured future, as a stepping stone to get the course that you want in uni, with your capability, I don't think there will be any difficulties in securing a place in local U especially when the course that you are planning to apply is not that competitive in the local setting. You may find matrix not so challenging, but just remember, you are going to spend 1 yr in order to get into local U,it's the easiest way to achieve your final aim, besides, you should make use of this time to start preparing for QS. Regarding working overseas, it is of the least concern, if you are really capable and have the experience and knowledge that others need, no one will bother which university you graduated from.
Well, it's my view and the final decision is still yours. I know it's hard, and I already warned you before that this is gonna be the most important decision in your life, standing at the cross road, you are given a choice, which ever path that you chose, there is no U-turn, you should think properly and once a decision made, do not be easily influenced by others,it's your life, and only you can decide.you have to be independent now, my dear, you are no longer a little girl that can hide under the family's protection forever. Use your knowledge, and your faith and whatever good qualities that had been implanted in you all these years, be confident and be adventurous. Nothing ventured nothing gained, here you are, at this stage of life that you have to decide for yourself and be ready to face all consequences and challenges that follows. we have faith in you, just listen to what your heart says and be strong to your stand and true to yourself. Good luck to you my dear, wherever you go and whatever you do,you know your family will always be there to support you.It all goes back to the only question awaiting answer : what do you want to achieve in life?think hard my dear, think hard...


From,
your sis

学习对象

最近，较值得兴奋的事，是我找到了一个值得学习的对象。对于她的学问，我深感佩服，我在想七年后的今天，我是否也会有相等的学识，这一切还是未知数，决定关键在于我的态度，当然，还有很多我无法控制的因素。我们将在不同的领域上发展，如果我真的想像她一样，就真的有好多要改掉的恶习。最重要的，就是肯牺牲，不怕难。我不知道是否真的有能力办到，但至少我清楚自己该努力的方向。聊到我想要选的科系，在这医院并没有很好的实习环境，这点，我当然知道，也曾考虑，先到外面去闯，在回来伺机大改造，不晓得会否有这样的机缘。一些我有能力改变的，就先行动吧，至于，尚没能力的，再想也只是空想，一切就随机应变吧。。。